American Idol is AWESOME!!!

Some awesome quotables from American Idol, Tuesday, February 19, 2008...

- Paula: "There's alot of colors that are gonna come out"
- Ryan (in response to Simon's catty comment on Danny Noriega's performance): "Be careful he might double snap you back"

That's it for now...

fI

P.S. David Archuleta's performance tonight (video here soon!) was AMAZING!!! He is sooo Top 12! :D

It's my party...and I'll get drunk if I want to, Part 0.5...

So just a quick post...

So in the eve of my birthday, the phone calls start at about 11:49PM-ish...

Updates as soon as I recover from my party Saturday night...

fI

The "R" word...

So I am befuddled...

Why is the word "Relationship" such an off putting topic?!

Seems like alot of the guys out here in LA are so put off with being monogamous and just want to literally fuck around all time. I don't get it! It's like no one wants to be in a relationship; and yet those do, want to take their time. Fine, I understand you gotta make sure you two are compatible, appreciate each other's time and what have you. Granted, there are those who are scared about committing. That really bothers me...

Case in point. So, DM and I had entertained his idea of grabbing dinner at Mark's Restaurant a few Mondays ago. So he finally gets back to me and confirms he can do it. So then I was like great it's a dinner date. Which did not set well with him. He stated that it's not a date cause we're not dating. He knows I like him, but before he stated we're just friends for now. Okay, I accept that. But honestly a dinner date, does not mean we're dating. It's just that, a dinner date. It doesn't entail anything other than us having dinner. I didn't get what the big deal was.

Rebuttle. Then we hung out last weekend, caught a free screening on the movie lot (it was horrible!!! Don't ever see Meet the Spartans...so NOT worth it! Thankfully saw it for free! :P) then had dinner at Sonora Cafe. Which was a great place BTW! :D Anyways, so we got there early for our reservation and we go and have some drinks at the bar until our table was called. He tells me about a date he had with this younger guy from the CL ad he put up. He called that a date?! Um...okay...why won't he let me validate our times hanging out as dates?! Am I missing something here?!

Furthermore, I asked him out for Valentine's Day. I didn't call it a date in fear of labeling it would put him off from the whole idea. He said yes, but I've so far only acknowledged it as "hanging out." I really like him and, honestly, why would I ask if I wasn't interested? He asked me why him [as my v-day choice] and of course I said, "Cause you're an awesome guy and I enjoy hanging out with you." Clearly, I like him...I guess he wanted to hear me say it.

I wanted to see him this weekend too, but he had work today. I understand that. Work is important and I would never want to get in the way of it. And then tomorrow he is doing work from home whilst watching the Superbowl. I had hoped he would invite me over to just hang out and watch while he worked, but I guess that too might be troublesome since he has to focus on his work. That's fine. I'm okay with that. Maybe I'm just being a bit too needy at this point. I dunno?

Well, we'll see how this upcoming Saturday goes as he's attending my birthday celebration. If any of you that I know are in LA, let me know and I'll let you know where it's at if you wanna partake on the festivities. It should be fun!!! I really, really like DM. I just wish he would let me know if he feels the same way or if I'm just leading myself on. I know he said "just friends, for now," but that is so open ended!!! >:O Maybe I need to ask him like I did with MG (the guy who runs his own business). I'll have to think about that...Maybe on v-day...good a time as any right?! :T

Pardon the incongruity of this post...More soon on other things from this past month...but this has been on my mind as of late and I needed a sounding board...

fI

Only in Los Angeles...

Okay, so today, I had left work early and was out shopping with my buddy J#1 at H&M at the Beverly Center.

So we walk in and I'm milling around looking at the square cut boxers along the back wall next to the dressing room. As I'm admiring the wall and looking at all the pairs of undies, this guy walks up, brownish red hair, chiseled features and ripped body. I, of course, start staring at him. As I get a closer look, I realize who it is. Brent Corrigan!!! THE Brent Corrigan!!! I walked over to my friend and I was like "I just another porn star. Third one so far!" And he was like, "Well that's pretty sad you recognize him." Jerk haha...I love him for his sarcasm! I shrugged him off and I was like I'm going to go ask him if its him.

So I trailed around to the other side of the men's section and find him trying on some red sunglasses. I hesistate a little and then I approach him, "Are you Brent Corrigan, [mumbled] David Lockhart?" (I know I fucked up, his real name is Sean Lockhart.) "Um, sometimes..." "Oh okay...cool. I thought I recognized you." As I proceed to walk away he says to me, "What's your name?" "Bry[an], nice to meet you." "Nice meeting you too." Awkward. More so for him than myself as I obviously didn't give a flying fuck at the moment, but after that I left him alone. After he shook my hand I noticed his friend that was with him smirked. Bet he was surprised I recognized him!

Anyways, for your viewing pleasure...



More photos here.

Apparently, I watch too much porn according to J#1; but in reality I'm just really, really good at recognizing faces.

That is all for now...Sadly, it seems I can whittle out posts like these in an instant, but can't bring myself to blog about my parents confronting me and me coming out to them...christ! I will find some time this weekend!!! I swear!!! :(

fI

Shit!

Hey gang!

Sorry I've been MIA...I've been meaning to blog but unfortunately work has kept me busy and my personal life has picked up a bit. I still need to tell you about my coming out story that happened during my Thanksgiving weekend! I apologize to all you faithful readers (what few of you I have left)!

So I will try to take the time this weekend and post a little something something for you all! ;)

fI

Mission: Critical!!!

HUGE News...HUGE!!!

I am now officially, completely out...My parents know!!!

Updates and complete story soon!!! :D

fI

P.S. Okay I sound excited but it was a good and bad experience...

Sometimes...

Strangely enough today...I felt quite lonely. I ended up staying at work late, alone to try to get some work done (because honestly, I barely did any work all day even though I got in at 7:45AM after working out with J#1, ate my breakfast upstairs in the cafe, had a long lunch out for my coworker's birthday, a meeting we arrived late to due to lunch, et all). Sitting there at my desk, all of a suddent I was washed over with a huge feeling of loneliness. I think my being a social butterly takes its toll on me mentally. That's not to say I'm not happy and fine being alone from time to time, but there are times when you just wish you had someone or some place you could go and not feel alone, you know? Well it also probably didn't help that J#1 had expressed some news to me about his situation which really took the wind out of me and made me feel depressed. It broke my heart to hear what had said...I'm hoping he doesn't follow through with it. I'll honestly be really sad if he does go that route. Sorry, I know I'm being vague, but for good reason. It's like that saying goes, if you speak it, it will happen. I tried to be positive with him, but he was being a defeatist as my coworker had called it. It's frustrating to seem him in that state of mind. And as a friend, what can you do but try to make light of the situation; and unfortunately, he was stressed out and I called him out and said he was being irrational. "Irrational my ass!" he bellowed over IM. *sigh* Anyways...I barely ate anything for dinner and nearly didn't eat cause as I was texting CS he said you shouldn't eat after 7PM. 6:55PM. "You have 5 minutes eat eat eat." I replied "You're silly, I can't eat that fast!"

Okay...I'm just rattling now with a flow of consciousness. Maybe it's cause I'm tired...I should probably sleep now... I'll blog more...need to talk about "Paying It Forward," coworker's birthday lunch today, coming out to more friends and confusion of misdirected assumptions...

fI

P.S. That pic is of the (4) mini Hershey's Chocolate Bars with Almonds I consumed before writing this post. Are you jealous Drew?! hehe...Means I'm gonna have to do 100 more crunches now...:T