When worlds collide...
A blog entry here with more pictures and info.
Just thought I'd do a quick expose...I'm really good with facial recognition so hence the revelation...Happy Friday everyone! TGIFF!!!
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...I know who I am now.
A blog entry here with more pictures and info.
Just thought I'd do a quick expose...I'm really good with facial recognition so hence the revelation...Happy Friday everyone! TGIFF!!!
fI
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Some awesome quotables from American Idol, Tuesday, February 19, 2008...
- Paula: "There's alot of colors that are gonna come out"
- Ryan (in response to Simon's catty comment on Danny Noriega's performance): "Be careful he might double snap you back"
That's it for now...
fI
P.S. David Archuleta's performance tonight (video here soon!) was AMAZING!!! He is sooo Top 12! :D
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Okay, so today, I had left work early and was out shopping with my buddy J#1 at H&M at the Beverly Center.
So we walk in and I'm milling around looking at the square cut boxers along the back wall next to the dressing room. As I'm admiring the wall and looking at all the pairs of undies, this guy walks up, brownish red hair, chiseled features and ripped body. I, of course, start staring at him. As I get a closer look, I realize who it is. Brent Corrigan!!! THE Brent Corrigan!!! I walked over to my friend and I was like "I just another porn star. Third one so far!" And he was like, "Well that's pretty sad you recognize him." Jerk haha...I love him for his sarcasm! I shrugged him off and I was like I'm going to go ask him if its him.
So I trailed around to the other side of the men's section and find him trying on some red sunglasses. I hesistate a little and then I approach him, "Are you Brent Corrigan, [mumbled] David Lockhart?" (I know I fucked up, his real name is Sean Lockhart.) "Um, sometimes..." "Oh okay...cool. I thought I recognized you." As I proceed to walk away he says to me, "What's your name?" "Bry[an], nice to meet you." "Nice meeting you too." Awkward. More so for him than myself as I obviously didn't give a flying fuck at the moment, but after that I left him alone. After he shook my hand I noticed his friend that was with him smirked. Bet he was surprised I recognized him!
Anyways, for your viewing pleasure....jpg)
More photos here.
Apparently, I watch too much porn according to J#1; but in reality I'm just really, really good at recognizing faces.
That is all for now...Sadly, it seems I can whittle out posts like these in an instant, but can't bring myself to blog about my parents confronting me and me coming out to them...christ! I will find some time this weekend!!! I swear!!! :(
fI
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This is going to be a longer post than usual! I need to catch up on alot of recent events...
So first of all I need to recap on my second time attending the So Cal Social Club mixer that was on October 24, 2007.
This was THE best mixer so far for me, because I came out of my shell. I vowed to not let the same thing happen to me again or anyone else for that matter. I got there a bit early and Luciano (the founder of the So Cal Social Club) made fun of me! But my excuse is that work is literally down the street and no one was in the office anymore so there was no point in me sitting at work doing nothing. So in the beginning I noticed someone was in the same predicatment as I was in my first attendance, so I started talking to them (we'll call him W). And we got to talking for a while, then met his friend (we'll call him MG and who I am now friends with on a more casual basis). Met a whole bunch of new people (which I will get to in a minute). Not to mention showed my pop culture buffness during the game we played in the discussion group that evening (is it sad that I know what The Rugrats were/are?!). It was great this time around meeting everyone and seeing a few familiar faces here and there (not to mention the jerk who tried to get me on the pyramid scheme...). Anyways good times all around, and then the fruit flies showed up so we bounced and hit up The Abbey for some drinks, hummus and meeting up with their friend/former band mate. We shot the shit and hung out for a bit before I went home.
Then there was the Men of Laguna Beach calendar signing this past Tuesday. Pictures are worth a thousand words...so here's some pictures to keep this part short:
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So I apparently have too many boys I'm into that have their name start with the letter J.
First there's J1, whom, I can proudly say, I am able to be friends with. After having met him at speed dating in the beginning of August, I started chatting him up over AIM in the beginning of October. He was straightforward with me and said that he'd be okay with us being friends. At first it was a bit hard to do so, but I finally got over the attraction. We hung out at the mall, chat online alot of the time during work hours and I've hung out at his place. Right now, I feel we're in a really good place as far as our friendship; it's burgeoning to be a long lasting friendship.
Then there's J2, whom I also met at speed dating, but he's playing so many damn games! He has social ADD as I have experienced when I decided to go out with him and his friends the other Saturday evening. Long story short, after having danced somewhat intimately with him, he asks me if I like him. I nod in agreement and he follows with, "only as friends, right?" BURN!!! So then we exit the club without his friends (a guy and a girl) and he says to me that he's seeing the guy we left behind with his friends. DOUBLE BURN!!! UGH...the next day I was quite annoyed with the games J2 played, so I was quite curt with him that Sunday morning. Hanging out with J2 three days in a row was a REALLY bad idea.
And finally J3, randomly sought him out on facebook. How shallow, I know. But he's completely gorgeous albeit a cynic. I've fallen in love with his musical taste (as per his playlist on his myspace) and I enjoy our conversations. Although he's miles away, I'm hoping that when he gets back in town, he'll be open to grabbing something to eat or drink to just get to talking. He says he's a bad boy friend, reason being that he's all about pleasing himself and not particularly caring about the person he's with. Also taht he hates explaining himself more than once. He continues to say he's a jerk, but I feel it's a wall he's built up and I'm quite enamored by him, physically and mentally. Hopefully, in due time, we'll see where it goes...
Okay so next topic on the list is talking about the So Cal Social Club mixer #2 for me...it was actually a really great time this time around. REALLY great time...
fI
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So to recap the last week or so, starting from last Friday...
Last Friday my best friend from HS and her fiance came up to WeHo to hang out. Oh but before that, my coworkers and I hit up Kiehls to redeem my certificate. See the damage here:
Then it was off to The Abbey for dinner at 7PM or so. The food at The Abbey was amazing (although they needed to superheat the soup a bit more) and not to mention the Key Lime Martini and Mango Mojito I had. Then we proceeded to waltz on over to Rage to see if we could get our wristbands for the night; no bueno in the first five minutes, but the security guard came around and we ordeded up a Mind Eraser (for me), a B-52 for my friend and a Chocolate Cake shot for the fiance. So we meandered back down the street to one of the many yogurt shops on Santa Monica Blvd. We split a cup of the plain with mochi (which was slightly awful, but I got the job to eat it all), cap'n crunch and strawberries. Yum! We then made our way back to The Abbey to see if the bartender (I can now say I know), Luciano. Found him and proceeded with an Irish Car Bomb and then a Chocholate Cake shot after. Then we headed over to Fiesta Cantina to see if any of the waiters I knew were working, but no bueno again. That was until we were about to head out and ran into Jesse, my now most favorite waiter ever! (Story to come as to why) We finally make our way back to Rage and dance the next few hours away while some other friends make their way over to WeHo. Eventually we call it a night as my other friends finally make it to Rage and I say our brief hello's and even briefier goodbye's. I suggested in our leave we hit up Fiesta Cantina for one last hurrah for the evening. We make our way in and up to find Jesse and we luckily find a seat in his station. We only end up ordering a Sprite (me) and Jesse comps the drink. So I tipped him a fiver and said my goodbye to him and got a kiss on the cheek from him! *gasp* :D Granted, Jesse's a friendly guy and is very flirtatious. I haven't known him for all too long, but I have to say I'm developing a crush on him! I did post a picture of him previously, so feel free to go find it! :D
So Saturday rolls around and I make my way way down to Disneyland for Gay Days. Rather than being long winded about this day, I spent it with BoFL and other friends from college and such. Also caught the Aladdin stage show again over at California Adventures. Then I got a phone call after the show from none other than Drew from Superdrewby. More on this when I talk about Sunday. I called it a night when we were about to grab dinner and ate at my parents place.
And Sunday, was amazing despite some hiccups. So I finally got the opportunity to meet one of my favorite bloggers in the world, Drew of Superdrewby!!! He's already blogged about meeting here, but now it's my turn! I was looking forward to finally meeting Drew (and his partner Lee) at the Harbor House Cafe in Huntington Beach. But on the way, I got a phone call from my aunt saying that my mom locked herself out the house. I was nearly there when I got the phone call and I begrudgingly headed back home. I finally made my way back to Harbor House and walk into the cafe with Drew and Lee greeting me. I was elated to have finally met them both and enjoyed our conversation about various things. Definitely enjoyed chit chatting as they ate their lunch. Unfortunately our time was short as they had to make their way back up to LA to pick up their luggage and head to the airport in time for their flight that evening. But before they headed out we snapped a few pics and here's one:
The rest of Sunday I spent at a going away party for a friend from HS and his gf who are heading to NY for a job and a change of pace for them.
So that's all for now...I gotta blog about this week's events like seeing Avenue Q on Tuesday, the "non-date" on Wednesday and having lunch with my crush I met at speed dating a few months back on Friday...
Hope you all enjoy your weekend! :D
fI
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To balance out the dismal, previous post:
My most recent crush...
Cheyenne Jackson (and Kerry Butler) singing "Suddenly" from Xanadu the musical...
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Day 02, September 01 -
This day was awesome cause I got to sit down and talk with the creator of my favorite musical (Altar Boyz!!!) of all time, Ken Davenport!!! I was uber excited as he agreed to meet me half an hour before having to street time for his other new production, My First Time. I piqued his interest in the duration of our conversation with the knowledge I have on the advertising industry, in particular Google AdWords. I got to ask him questions as well about nuances of my fave musical and what have you. It was definitely a great meeting of the minds, normally it would have cost me "wafers" (see here for the "wafers" reference) but I got lucky! :D Anyways, I digress. Us street teamers finally headed out of the office towards Broadway clad in shirts that say "Ask Me About My First Time." Quite awkward if you ask me! But in the spirit of things...It wasn't so awkward...I think the looks I got while wearing the shirt and trying to pass out flyers and pins were worse! Haha! Not to mention the heat that day with a black shirt was definitely not something one should do...I think they need to get white shirts from now on...theyr'e cheaper too! :X So after two hours of that, we headed back to the office on 49th and I talked a bit more with Ken! Even got a free ticket to his new show My First Time (more on this later but let me tell ya it was great!). If you're ever in New York and want tickets to the show, wander down Broadway and 46th, next to the Bank of America ATMs and ask for Jeramy, one of the street teamers with binders and tell him Bry sent ya! :D He has discounted tickets for both Altar Boyz and My First Time!
Later that evening I went to see another musical (yes I know...this would be #3 during my vacation) called Naked Boys Singing. And they were NOT kidding when they say Naked!!! 7-8 guys show up on stage wearing NOTHING at all. With only their wits about them, they pranced, danced, pirouted around stage with their willies hanging out for all to see and oogle! My mouth (not for that reason you perverts!) was agape the whole time! It was a sight to see! There were two (one of which I will get to in a second) that were well endowed! But one in particular really caught my eye; his name is Spencer Gates. He was quite the looker! He was gorgeous! Drop dead! (More about him in a second) Anyways, show lasted about an hour, hour and a half as a musical reveue of various different songs about being naked, getting circumsized, masturbation...you name it, it was probably a topic of one of the songs they sang! It was better than seeing Thunder Down Under I would think, but I have yet to compare the two (I will by next February for a bachelorette party!). So that show ended and I was out in the lobby when Spencer makes his way out, avoiding any eye contact and looking towards the ground. Again my mouth was agape; frozen, wanting to ask him for a photo, clothed, but felt like the ultimate pervert if I did. The gaggle of 'Mos who were also in the lobby, giggled in delight as Spencer made his exit. How do they do it day in day out? Lucky for them, Naked Boys Singing only plays on Fridays at 10:30PM & Saturday at 6PM and 10:30PM.
Next, I saw My First Time. It was great how there was audience participation in the sense that when you went to sit in your seat there was a voluntary questionairre you could fill out with a branded pen. You filled it out about your sexual experiences and an usher came around to pick them up from you. If your story were good enough, it may be chosen as one of the ones read by the actors on stage. Interestingly enough, they compiled all the date you filled out and throughout the show they had a slideshow that had updated information about how many virgins were in the theatre, percentages and stats across the board. It was interesting! The two male actors, Bill Dawes and Josh Heine, were hot as hell! Especially Bill, who was popping out of his read t-shirt and sport coat. Dreamy! The stories were retold in the style of the Vagina Monologues and consisted of stories ranging from gay and straight, abuse, pleasure, situations, etc. All the recollections were used from a website that people around the world submitted anonymously. It was definitely an interesting show to say the least!
This day was one of my longer days as I was out of the place I was staying for most of the day. It was great seeing both these shows, especially Naked Boys Singing! *gushes* :D
*EDIT: I forgot to mention the rest of my evening: dinner with the boys and Fat Cat in Chelsea! Will add it tomorrow!
Next on the plate, Day 03...but that's for tomorrow! Hope some of you are enjoying the recollection of my trip, otherwise for posterity!
fI
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On my way down Time Square, I managed to see a mob gathering around and a ton of paparazzi swarming with that crowd...I go in for a closer look...and I spot him...HIM!!!
"Hey, Blake!" *poses* (you don't see that in my pic, but he did pose for me!!! :D)
The end result to the left! :D And thank you Blake Lewis, for being so hot! ;)And speaking of more news...saw Altar Boyz again for the second time and second day in a row! :D
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I saw Altar Boyz tonight off-Broadway in NYC...I could die a happy man now! :D More on this later...
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Today, what can go wrong, is going wrong...*sigh*...
It's not world ending stuff, but when it's a bunch of things it can totally eat you alive...
Not even the hot boyz in the office can cheer me up at the moment.
I'm off to NYC in about 9 hours! I'm excited but lamenting on a few things...
...what to do?!
fI
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In the words of Hott Porter (aka Scott Porter of Friday Night Lights fame) and Hugh Grant, definitely had a crushing moment this past Friday.
Let's start with previous Friday first, as it set a precedence. Again, I marked that evening with a similar routine of going to WeHo and patronizing my usual spots of Rage, Fiesta Cantina and The Abbey (and not particularly in that order). But what makes this night different, from all the other nights, is that I took my Lil Bro from my fraternity with me. Or rather, he finally came to hang out cause he was already nearby in Pasadena. And thankfully to that right, I nearly had an uneventful night but the Lil Bro saved it and still wanted to go out! Thankfully! So we popped his WeHo cherry and I took him to the usual watering holes: a mojito at the Abbey, good eats and too many drinks at Fiesta Cantina, and dancing the rest of the night away at Rage. The only spotty instance was at Fiesta Cantina, with the waiter totally ignoring our existance for 15 minutes, but lucky for myself and my Lil Bro, Billy came to our rescue despite risking getting in trouble for getting us drinks. Thank you Billy! ;) Our night got better, as we ran into several people we knew at Rage and proceeded to dance it up with them for the rest of the evening. Unfortunately, my Lil Bro had work in the morning so we called it an early night.
Fast forward to this Friday, again a similar night, but not so similiar in many instances. On the drive down that evening, I called Dandy and found out they weren't leaving for a whole 'nother 45 minutes later (it was 9:30PM at the time) because their ride was not yet off from work (met the bloke later, he was a sweet guy in his fourth year of college...wow, I feel old!!! :T). I then proceeded to call Lil Bro who thankfully decidedly came out to party again that evening. I get there early and wait for my Lil Bro. I debated whether on venturing alone or waiting for him to arrive; I chose the latter. With not much to do til then, I called around and tried to catch up with people since, as of late, I've been really bad at doing so. After a good half hour of this, Lil Bro arrived and we proceeded to make our rounds: first to Rage for $12 wristbands; next off to The Abbey where I proceeded to down an Irish Car Bomb; then to Fiesta Cantina for the 2 for 1's and some munchies. Billy was there as usual, but the first floor was crowded, so we made our way up to the second floor and we find Jesse, the other cute waiter at Fiesta Cantina...waaaaay cuter than Billy I might add. As a matter of fact here's a pic of Jesse and I from a few weeks back:
Jesse definitely worked hard for the money this evening! He checked on us often, which I appreciated...He's amazing! I slipped him my business card along with our check. He totally deserved the huge tip I gave him. Thanks Jesse ;) By this time, finally, The Crush and Dandy made it over to Fiesta. And we chatted it up. Dandy was quite drunk and so was The Crush. Can someone call me a pirate cause I was searching for treasure all over The Crush's body. So, some back story on The Crush...remember way back when I had a helicopter ride last October? Well that's the crush who graciously took me 1,000 feet into the air. I found out days before that he's come out of the closet; which was much to my elation! Unfortunately, in the end, I had no affect on him...more on that in a second. We make our way to Rage and try to dance, but Dandy and friends wanna go to The Abbey, so Lil Bro and I oblige. We make our way back over again and I continued to have my hands all over The Crush during the trek. There were definitely some other lookers in Dandy's gaggle of friends, in particular Peter; cute asian guy who had an amazing personality. Too bad he has a boyfriend (such is my luck). We continue to drink at The Abbey where I added to my drink list a Mind Eraser (along with what I had previously of the Irish Car Bomb, Margarita with Petron [which was REALLY strong] and finally the two Amaretto sours). We hung around a bit and much to my dismay, The Crush was busy texting his ex who was also in the area and was proceeding to Rage as we lounged at The Abbey. We all finally finished up and headed back to Rage at 1:15AM-ish. We get there and The Crush proceeds to hook back up with his ex. HIS EX!!! And I emphasize, his Ex. Dandy did warn me that he even tried to get with The Crush without much luck; so for me to try was definitely futile as Dandy is a beautiful piece of man. He's gorgeous! Anyways haha...Cut to the end, the evening ended with Dandy getting friendly with a friend of his and The Crush embracing/teeth cleaning his ex. UGH! As the Lil Bro said, "This is awkward." Most definitely!!!
As far as the rest of the weekend, caught Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix on the movie studio lot, which was amazing! Thanks to friend from NY for hanging out and catching up over a free movie. Also went to visit a friend who worked on the lot before we all parted ways. And the rest of last night was catching up with ESJ as we haven't chatted online like we did last night and it was nice. I missed him. Not to mention amongst other things! ;) haha...Okay I better get showered. Parents wanna grab lunch before I shove off early this afternoon. Talk to you bitches soon! :P
fI
P.S. That first picture is of Patrick Wilson since I was watching Little Children. And the bottom picture is of Scott "Hott" Porter and Hugh Grant in Music and Lyrics which I also managed to watch.
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So I need to get my head sorted out...and here is likely the best place as any (not to mention none of my personnel support is up/around/available)...
Like I've mentioned previously, I'm totally coming to terms with things and am finding great comfort in just being completely honest and open with friends about myself and, in particular, my persuasion.
This weekend was no exception. Thursday, whilst at the International San Diego Comic Con, I happened upon the Lionsgate booth and while perusing with my college friend, Bub, the booth model caught my eye. He was gorgeous! Over 6', muscular and olive skinned. Beautiful. (I may just post this photograph of myself and the model for my big revealing...which I will discuss further below. *edit: cropped [for the time being] and posted above! :D). After being transfixed, I dragged Bub around the booth and continue past it. It was then I thought to myself, I'll just tell him now, as I really wanted my pic snapped with the said model. So I disclose and Bub, despite being a little shocked, was completely fine with it. We circled back and he snapped my photo with the model.
Interestingly enough, the incident above made the whole weekend easier for me as I didn't have to hide anything with Bub and he asked me what my ratio split is between guys and girls; and the answer to that is 70/30...which made me wonder...is there such a thing as gay-curious?! Since there's bi-curious; is there such thing as straight-curious (for ex-gays maybe?! Is there such thing as that as well?!)? Definitely perplexing...maybe I am totally gay and not just bi? I digress (this blog post is become a flow of consciousness at the moment)...
Anyways, before I rattle on, I should give more back story about why all this self-exploration is coming about. Last week, I partied in WeHo again for the umpteenth time; hitting up Rage, Fiesta Cantina and The Abbey. This evening started off my boldness, amongst other things. Liquid Courage was definitely an important part of that evening, as it helped me loosen up and get pretty out there. In my drunken state I: took a photo with the hot, (unfortunately I found out) straight security guard at The Abbey (he let me in the previous time sans my ID), let Dandy (friend from college who had been openly gay and told me after having first met him a long time ago) give me a lap dance (it was really nice btw! :D) as well as he and I grinding it on the dance floor (good times! ;D). Had an awesome evening and we topped it off at Swingers Diner as I still needed to sober up and drive home (at 3am mind you! :X).
*WARNING: It may get graphic starting in the next paragraph...you have been warned!!! :P
Fast forward to the next evening...I had finished with a friend's engagement party and it was decided us kids in attendance would hit Starbucks for some refreshments. So I headed off with a friend (*note: Straight boy) who hitched a ride to Starbucks, albeit early and we were the first arrivals. So we chit chat in the car and take a look at the photos from the previous evening. So we finish that and then I decided to get a bit frisky with this friend and put my hand on his upper thigh (mind you, we are still sitting in the car, about 20 feet from people in public and no, my windows are not tinted). I then worked my way further up, to his balls (which caused him to jerk back, for lack of a better word, in effect) and then I began to feel around thus finding what I was looking for. I start rubbing him through his shorts and query him, "So is this doing anything for you?". I continued rubbing him through his shorts, made some comment about unzipping him on the spot and he then tried to stop me by flicking my hand jokingly (?) to stop doing what I was doing. So I did. Then some friends did finally show up and the friend, after my prodding, did not want to head in to the store, so I put my hand back on his upper thigh and continued on my conquest. After this second visit, said friend decided it was time we got out of the car...end Bold Moment #1.
Next Scene: Bold Moment #2 - Setting: The next day. To get the pun out of the way, A1 Steak Sauce definitely has nothing on me, thanks to this day. Now with another friend (he's Bi), I tell the story of yesterday's antics and said friend makes it apparent he is getting hard from the retelling and redemonstration of said events. So friend queries me if I want to see it, seeing how he was already hard from the transpirings of previous events; so I agree. We mutually decide it's a "Show me yours, I'll show you mine" type of deal. So we both unzip and begin handling each other's goodies. I begin to notice that I'm enjoying this mutualistic moment more than friend. So in all fairness I asked him if he was nervous/okay and I swear I could totally hear him swallow the lump in his throat; we decided it went further than it should have and we both rezipped. That was the end of that...for now; at least according to that friend.
So I'm getting completely confused and discombobulated. I disclosed all this to ToBF and he made a good observation that "[I'm] probably making up for lost time." Which I think is definitely a spot-on description of what's happening as of late. But, back again to the assessment of my current situation. Can I be gay-curious? I think I'm completely beyond being bi and feeling things out. But before I decide, I think I need to figure out all the feelings in my head and that will also come along with my revealing.
So I'm completely done with hiding myself and I would totally be fine being out in the open and I think my confidence would completely be boosted if I completely reveal myself...August. That's soon...I will tell all (more?) then...
To be continued...
fI
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Shayne Ward - If That's Ok With You
Definitely okay with me...(actually MORE than okay!)...
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J/K...I wish that were true...well, the "People To Do" part at least.
So in the last few weeks I have been totally going out (pun intended) of my way to be out in the scene.
I live in the valley (for those of you outside of the US, that's the Northern part of Southern California), which is about 20-30 mins North of LA, specifically, West Hollywood, the mecca of So Cal for us Mo's here.
I know I've mentioned I have popped my gay clubbing cherry already, but I took it to the next level. With The Twins (who self proclaimed calling themselves Fag Hags now) we hit up Hamburger Mary's late June. Some of you may be familiar with this place but it's a gay restuarant and it's absolutely fabulous! haha Our waiter was awesome (after one twin asked how the Mac & Cheese Balls were, he replied "They're nice and gooey! I like my balls cheesey!" We were in stitches at that point) and he even got me a double shot in my margarita (which was a surprise to me cause I didn't realize and the twins were like yah he said it was a double shot).
We then proceeded to check out a bar down the street called "Gold Coast" (which was more like "OLD" Coast) and grabbed a drink while we got sassed by some patrons of the bar on the street, with one twin getting lip about her boots (and not in a positive way mind you). We then headed out to The Abbey. That place is awesome, let me tell you! So me being the gym rat, I had managed to forget my ID in my gym bag that night. But lucky me! I told the security guard I had forgotten my ID and seeing my lament, he looked at me (with his gorgeous eyes) and just asked me what my birthdate was, and let me in. SCORE!!! OMG! I was so happy he let me in. Not to mention I didn't realize it but he was a totally hottie! So after chatting it up with the twins we decided to call it a night and headed back out to find said security guard so we could take a photo. But no luck, as I didn't want to ask him out right (he probably gets it all the time). Oh well!
That evening set a precedent in the next few weeks.
So in the last few weeks I've ended up telling about another 4 people or so, one of them being a friend from HS whom I've known for next to 13 years now. She did find it a bit shocking but was totally cool about it. Not to mention she stated, "Now we can check out the hot white guys!" (despite having a boyfriend already, hah!) I <3>
And in the previous weekend I help manage the registration department for this large convention in Long Beach with about 40,000 attendees (projected) and man that was insane! Luckily for me, BFoR, BFoR's sister, BFoL, ToBF were there to keep me sane! And not to mention this hot boy name Shaun who was a volunteer for the convention. He was totally hot (despite being underage)! And so a story for this goregeous specimen of hotness:
I spotted him working across the way and I was telling BFoR how I was totally enamored by this hot volunteer. BFoR being the awesome friend he was managed to snap some pics of said boy with his digital SLR (which I still need to get from him!). And I was trying to figure out a way to get his name, cause he had no name tag. And then I had an epiphany! I got very courageous and went over and started chit chatting with everyone in his area. Then I zeroed in on him, "Actually, we need someone to help queue this line...what was your name?" "Shaun." "Nice to meet you Shaun! Do you mind if I pull you from here and put you over there *pointing to the line*." "Sure." SCORE! Got his name and even managed to put my hand on his back. Yes, I'm suave! hahaha So this whole time I'm oogling him and since he was directly across from a friend's station I kept visiting her so I could talk about him and get eyefuls.
Next up, was the manager at the Chili's store. He caught my eye immediately! He had some nice pants on that definitely showed off his ass-ets. ;) BFoR's sister was in tow and well, she knew I was feenin' on the manager, so she made it her crusade to get me his picture, under the guise that he looked like one of her friends. He told her he would come to our table when he had a moment. A good moment had passed and well he never made it to our table, so up she went and found him and snapped a photo of him for me. Thanks BFoR's sister! I <3>
Anyways, 4th of July was uneventful in the sense it was spent indoors cooking with NY Friend's GF (who I must say is a fucking awesome ass chef) but with the most delish food ever! She promised to teach me how to cook risotto when I go to NY end of August. I can't wait! :D
This past Saturday I hung out with the Twins again (I <3>Akbar in Silverlake, but again this gym rat forgot his ID in his gym bag, and this time no luck with the bouncer. ULTIMATE PARTY FOUL!!! The Twins forgave me, but I swear I'm a Party Fouler Extraordinaire (aside from being a Future Home Wrecker)! So after that, we decided to hit up Swingers in LA. This place is open til 4AM and is Mo friendly! :D There was a hot waiter inside that I could totally die for! We spent a good 3 hours there whilst waiting for the Twins' Friend (who's beautiful btw) and hoping for Twins' Other Friend (but he was preoccupied tending to other guys in his car who didn't want to go "far," when they were actually down the way on Hollywood...LAME!) to show up. We racked up a nice bill but I felt madd generous (thank you raise at my job...8.33% baby!). I enjoyed the evening so it was totally worth it!
We then also checked out Elvis' house in the hills (off of Laurel Canyon) before we trekked it back home to my place at 2AM. Good times with the bitches! :D
Okay...that's the last few days/weeks in a nut shell. I am slowly coming to point of not caring who knows about me anymore. Which brings me to another thought, is whether to be completely out in the open (on here) with my picture and name. There are those of you who already know me personally, but I'm done hiding under a guise. I need to decide soon what I want to do about this. I think my addressing my body image by going to the gym has given me tons of confidence and not to mention me looking pretty damn good these days! Maybe you all can judge soon enough...we'll see.
Hope all of you out there in the internet are well...well those one or two of you that do read my blog still...
fI
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I don't have many words for what's to follow this text...but wow...WOW. It made me all teary eyed. It was fucking amazing.
Jennifer Hudson & Jennifer Holiday opening up the BET Awards with "And I'm Telling You...":
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